Maybe

there’s a quiet low, it starts real slow, it hurts to know, and it’s shame to show
what do I believe, what do I need, what source is grief, what sound relief

maybe you’re gentler, maybe I’m sent for, maybe you left more, maybe It’s over

there’s a fretful knock, I won’t let you in, and a head will cock, when you knock again
now block the door, can’t let you see more, I hide it all, as you begin to call

maybe you’re gentler, maybe I’m sent for, maybe you left more, maybe It’s over

it’s unbearable, every variable, you have checked them ‘til, I became one ill
and here’s the hope, you hold me close, what’s in the room, is someone who’ll be back soon
who’s in the chair, you’re a friend who I need there

maybe you’re gentler, maybe I’m sent for, maybe you left more, maybe It’s over

You

how are you, how far to, get to you,
what’s been the cost, of fighting and fighting,
how you have lost, and cried over dying,

what are you, how far to, get to you,
what does it mean, why’re you still smiling,
how you’ve been seen, is greatly inviting,

who are you, how far to, get to you,
you look like new, curiosity’s got me,
There’s joy there too, what’s behind what I can see,

where are you, how far to, get to you,
where can I find, something simpler,
a someone kind, maybe like you were,

when will you

Know

I’ve just said hello, I’ll say it once more, can you try me, just try me
I know you love me, sometimes it’s hard to believe, maybe write me, just write me

Oh the audacity, oh when I simply plead, to know you, wanna know you
oh there’s a massive need, I got a head full of greed, I wanna show you, wanna show you

It’s like a cup of tea, so warm and cozy, I gotta sip from you, sip from you
It’s like a black coffee, oh it’s so bittersweet, take it slowly

I’m inching closer, I’m making it so sir, I tread lightly, tread lightly
I’m asking you for, to let my foot in the door, ever so politely, politely

I got my ears checked, they just passed every test, so run it by me, run it by me
let’s do a run through, maybe draw a cartoon, spell it out for me, out – tell me everything

Where

exits the chair, stands in the midst, of a harrowing fist, that shows me trouble, and I wish I could run, that I had a double, but my feet stay firm, I wish I had learned,
but oh, I know, wishing that it were so, and crying for air, with only a blank stare, doesn’t mean that there is God

push papers toward me, call them God’s word, say it all occurred, and that God speaks, but I’ve heard it all before, when I’m awake I’m weak, don’t tell me that He cares, if He did I wouldn’t be here
what I would need, is to know and to see, to reach to the side, to know it’s not a lie, to reach out and know there’s God

I’m tired and I’ve gone, alone and I weep, I just want to sleep, but it won’t let go, slide out of bed, toe after toe, maybe I’m deaf, but I can’t hear any voice left,
if what you said is true, I’ll still wait for you, you can find me here, and remind me there’s, such a wondrous thing as God

weathered am I, and I scurry around, I furrow the ground, searching to know, reasons for breath, and eating what grows, and taking a drink, so death don’t sink in,
but take a breath, feel the cold, the chill of air, the blistering fold, and know that there is God

I feel you now, gripping my tongue, there’s breath in my lungs, for the first time, breaths I take three, then raise my head, it comes back to me, now I see things differently
and I don’t feel so new, but I know that it’s you, looking at the ground, even there you are found, and I know that you are God

I

I think of your face, and what am I to say? What I can’t say, what I can’t know
I think of your face, oh and what am I to do? What I can’t know, where I can’t go

I, oh I, I, I

Understand, what it means to taste and to see, what I can’t be, what I can’t see
Understand, what it means to be so small, I feel too much, like a soaked sponge

I, oh I, I, I

Just talk to me, I don’t think I have to see, maybe just hear, feel like you’re near
A word from you, and I think I’ll be ok, maybe just sing, maybe just say

I, oh I, I, I

Trust in me, a study in simplicity, please don’t complicate, maybe just wait
I’ll hear you out, maybe leave behind my doubt, come and see me, I’ll be waiting

I, oh I, I, I

Forgive don’t forget, remember I’m imperfect, I’m a lost child, runnin’ so wild
So save me yet, from all these fool’s regrets, aren’t you still God, do you love me not

I, oh I, I, I

Am

I don’t have all the answers, though I know them in theory, let me introduce my old friend,
his name’s Mr. weary, but you know something serious, I don’t want to hear you,
you make me delirious, I don’t want to be near you

I have now a true friend, and He knows me so well, He’s literally a godsend, He’s literally so swell,
He makes you look something, a bit like the devil, here’s a sincere question, can you go back to hell

cause I’m tired of asking, and pleading for room, you must really want to see me,
fall on my face and swoon, I’m done asking favors, that I know you’ll never give,
I’m going to ask my true friend, who helps me really live

oh hello my new friend, you gave quite a lot, to be my true friend, to take weary’s spot,
but the question I have, is why do it for me, why give up your whole life, so that I could rest easy

my mind perfectly blank, as to why you chose to bless, a frustrated coward, like me a hot mess,
I’ve got only one guess, and it’s that you’re simply kind, that there’s grace in your eyes, and that your grace is all mine

I’m sad to remember, all the times I turned you down, to have Mr. weary, instead of you around,
but I have you now, and I don’t want to turn back, I’m not sure that I can do it, maybe you can help me with that

God bless you sweet Jesus, my sweet sweet friend, by God I pray, that this friendship never ends,
can you hear me sweet Jesus, you can in the end, just sit with me Jesus, my dear true friend

just sit near me Jesus, you’re my godsend

guess what He said, you said “I already am”